From to be yet still she struggled
From the story, she described how the white Euro-American kid’s attitude towards her that she is being bullied and mothers of this kids don’t pay attention to their behavior and worst they too look with rude curiosity towards her. The encountered manners of the vulgar people around her embarrassed her so much that put her on the mark of excessive tears and depression. She finds the new world is not the world she dreamed to be yet still she struggled to leave with.
Adding more, again she pinpoints that the Christian education she receives does not at all fit to let them survive or even give any help to her family because like mentioned earlier, it only leads in the destruction of her heritage and the life ways she was used with in the tribe(Kroeber). Also, from the lines that showed confusion from her, she doesn’t know to which direction to go with as an escape from the fright she some how encounters. And from the experience of tossing her high in the midair, it reminded that her mother never do plaything to her wee daughter.
So she then weeps and it was misunderstood by the people around her of the reason why she cried. They simply gave her a lot of food to divert her attention to stop blubbering(Bonnin). The absence of her mother made a big difference from her new community especially when she’s in times of trouble needing her guidance. To how her life changed, yes she arrived to an astonishing community yet she was not happy at all(Kroeber). She exhausted her body and mind from the long travel she went through and went into several bewildering insights.
She often get the sleep after a tiring sob and the tears are left to dry in streaks because her mother or her aunt is not near to wipe Gertrude’s’ whimper. From further reading to other Gertrude works as an effect to her life of settling under the Euro-American culture, she was encouraged and challenged to pursue her studies and made a hidden mission to affray her Native culture from the missionaries’ opposition. She intended to a different life. To build an image was then her objective as representative for an Indian image.
She received her high school diploma in 1891 after her encounter of the “four strange summers”. Moreover, she moved for college in 1895 at Earlham College. At this college, to mark an impression, she joined an oratorical contest and made for the first place. Also, in a statewide competition she was able to get the 2nd place in spite of the harsh discrimination from the audience. Spectators did not only make racist notes but a few among the crowd waved a flag that ridiculed her together with her school’s name on it.
A “forlorn” Indian picture was highlighted. Nevertheless, she felt a victory and triumph in front of massive Euro-American audience. Her experiences as an Indian girl in the school inspired her to be an Indian teacher for the goal and benefit of teaching the Indian tribes, and in 1897 she was hired at Carlisle Indian Industrial School. As part of he missionaries’ mission of education, she was obliged to recruit students for the incoming new school year from her birthplace at Yankton Reservation. She mentioned that, “I am going to turn you loose to pasture!
” (Minnesota). So she then went home. But when she’s already at home, facing her mother and was alarmed with the Euro-American intruding settlement in the reservation, Zitkala-Sa made a decision that she would back-out the teaching offer to her at Carlisle. Through her stay together with her mother, during the night, the “twinkling lights” created by the settlers interrupts the reservation home. The Euro-American colonizer trespass more of the reservation grounds which directed her mother to become more worn out against them .
Furthermore, Gertrude’s soon found out that her brother’s job as a government clerk of the reservation was impede(Minnesota). As a critic of the Carlisle to her behavior, they said that she owes her literary and culture from the Euro-American who introduced to her. As a form of gratitude, she suppose to be teaching the public but in return she injures herself and impairs the work in progress of missionaries’ education for the sake of her heritage(Kroeber).
To all the benefits that they gave to the Indian tribe such as the old clothes, they are directly questioning them because why can’t they thank them? Gertrude claims from the story that God is good and He did not intend to bring white man to destroy the stunning culture of Native American. , steal and grabbed their homelands, set them under reservation or beat Indian kids like her for speaking the mother’s dialect. Though she shows antipathy towards with the mistreatment, she still aims of making a bridge from the cultural difference.
She intends to break the belief among the white of seeing Native American tradition as folly or sin(Publication). Her visualization is that, her body as a product of mixed blood race could be looked up as a definite example of beauty and achievements of getting into harmony to which different cultures can live cooperatively too. After analyzing the story, maybe if Gertrude did not take the “apple” maybe till now, the Indians are still fighting for their rights or worst still treated with such depiction by the white man.
Yet, thanks to her, the community is smooth and safe to live now for them.
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